Inspirit

Fear as someone once told me, is the lack of the faith, the inability to believe in something good that something good is going to come of things.  What is fear, is it the vulnerability laying in the cracks of the heart?  Is fear a strength to some but weakness to many?  The capacity of fear within the mind and heart defines the person for who they are, who they live for, and who they will become.  


Fear is defined as an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that something or someone is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.  But as it is known to many that fear is defined by our actions and how we deal with the weight of fear pressing down on our chests allowing no air to enter our lungs and allowing us to live, to be alive in our hearts and to not have such a weight, such a burden pressing on our chests.  


Fear can take grasp of the heart and mind and can feel as if it may never release the tension from such a hold to allow faith into the heart and mind but more importantly the spirit.  


Fear is darkness consumed by the hatred of Satan.  But Faith, Faith is having the  belief in knowing that something such as goodness and love will occur.  Faith is Heavenly Father's arms wrapping around us, reassuring us that there is no end, that life doesn't stop, that faith is what keeps us alive.

The Dark Storm

"Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when you let down a friend.

Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change your own ways.

But, our biggest regrets are not for the things we did -- but, for the things we didn't do. Things we didn't say that could've save someone that we care about. Especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way." -Lucas Scott 

Enkindle

Every body, every life, every heart, and every spirit holds someone close.  Someone whom even in the darkest depth of the world still holds on and will never let go.  A person who will hold you close when all other lights go out.  A friend whom exceeds the light of the sun.  


Every being in this world has been blessed with someone whom they can confide in and open their hearts to the world from within, the very essence of what drives them, what motivates them to be who they may be.  


I've always referred to songs to speak for me at times when words can't escape my tongue.


"Who's gonna save you when the stars fall from your sky,
And who's gonna pull you in when the tide gets too high,
Who's gonna hold you when you turn out the light?
I won't lie, I wish that I, could be your Superman Tonight."


I'm so grateful to have someone in my life who I can call my Superman Tonight.
The person who I can confide in.  The person who I can open my heart to and not be judged of my thoughts and actions.  People like you only come once in a lifetime.  I wouldn't have any other Hero, besides you.


What makes a hero?  Is it the sweat of their brow after enduring such a trial, is it the calluses that have formed from such a difficulty, is it the courage that is held within the heart?  Or is it the love for someone else, a pure form of love.  Each Hero holds a different purpose, a different meaning in the heart which they are held.  They are the Gentle Guardians of our heart. 

56

The countdown has begun.  As time is winding down for me to leave on my mission I begin to reflect on the things that I haven't accomplished yet and I only have so much time left to do the things that I want to do before I leave for my mission.  Number one of the list is to go on a road trip, that's the one thing that I've been wanting to do for the longest time.  Just time to go out and explore and not worry about preparation for my mission.  Number two on my list is to get a tattoo, no wait that wouldn't work out haha ;) number two on my list would be to go to the beach just one last time because who knows if I'll ever make it to the Black Sea while I'm in Bulgaria.  Number three on my list let me think here oh it would be to study up more on Bulgaria and the Bulgarian language.  Number four would be to inspire a certain friend of mine to join the church before I leave because I'm the only contact that he has to the church.  I don't have a number five yet so I'm still working on that.


I have realized though that throughout this time of me being out of school for so long I've been able to find myself and who I am.  I guess in a way it's been a way to redeem my self confidence in myself and to focus on things that I've passed up on in the past or things that I just never focused on.  For example a blog, I've been able to focus on a blog and reading, and some writing here and there so in a way I have been thankful for this time off from life.


Number five I just realized and completely forgot about for some reason but that's to take my endowments out before within these next couple of weeks.  That will be an incredible experience and one that I am truly looking forward to.  


These are my goals to accomplish before I leave for my mission, before I leave for my mission in 56 days.