There are days in my life when I feel as if I have accomplished something out of the ordinary, there are days when I fear fear itself, then there are days and moments in my life that change the course of my future and for the better.
This morning I woke up with a smile on my face then counted the days that I have till I leave, then I began to think about the emotional high that I will have when I leave for my mission. To have the opportunity to bye to everyone seems touching to me. These are the moments to remember. As I look back on the years that I have lived to the fullest as well as the moments I grow to be more and more thankful for those times that I have spent with my family and friends.
Growing up with my family has been one of the greatest trials that I have ever lived, it's my everyday trial. With how much of a struggle it can be at times I always look at how I can better myself. It has been an incredible experience, one that wouldn't trade for anyone. I have become the person that I am today because of my family in the most positive attitude there is. My testimony is as strong as it is because of the trials that my family and I have faced together. We have gained a natural connection with each other. At times my patience is tested by the actions or choices that we all make together but it strengthens my patience.
There are moments in my day when I think of where I will be in a weeks time and a flood of emotions hit my chest with great happiness. It seems typical to only fear the future but I cannot help but be only happy and excited for the blessings that are to come to my family while I am away. They may not notice what is to come to them but the blessings are on their way.
This morning I found myself to be reading a paragraph of my patriarchal blessing. What I enjoy most about reading it is that every time that I place my eyes on my blessing I always find something new, something that rejuvenates my blessing to me.
There are times in my life when I am hit with such joy and happiness in my life where I don't know which pocket to place them in because of how powerful they are. They are triggered by such amazing individuals that have been placed in my life.
"Is this a natural feeling
Or is it just me bleeding
All my thoughts and dreams.......
Is this a moment to remember
Or just a cold day in December?"
Monday, March 28, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
The Moments Worth Living
As I have mentioned before, each life that has been placed on this world has been blessed with someone special in their life. Whether it may be a best friend, a spouse, a mentor, etc.. I have often realized and frequently do that my life has truly been blessed with amazing friends, people who I know if I did not have in my life I would not be as strong of an individual as I am now. I give thanks to them for all that they have done for me and continue to do for me.
At times I ponder on what makes such a wonderful and amazing friend. Is it the fact of the matter that they can put up with me, or that there is an internal connection. Then a particular quote will pop into my mind, more than likely one of my most favorite quotes.
"The most basic and powerful way to connect to another person is to listen. Just listen. Perhaps the most important thing we ever give each other is our attention.... A loving silence often has far more power to heal and to connect than the most well-intentioned words." -Rachel Naomi Remen
It amazes me how just the power of listen can affect those around you. But how do we listen to those around us? Do we ask constant questions, or simply demand or ask for them to talk to us? Or is that we must show a sense of caring, to know that we are listening to not only the desires of their thoughts or actions but the desires of their hearts, the most true and honest desire. In order to do this we must place ourselves last and the individual first.
Don Marquis once said that "There is nothing we like to see so much as the gleam of pleasure in a person's eye when he feels that we have sympathized with him, understood him. At these moments something fine and spiritual passes between two friends. These are the moments worth living."
At times I ponder on what makes such a wonderful and amazing friend. Is it the fact of the matter that they can put up with me, or that there is an internal connection. Then a particular quote will pop into my mind, more than likely one of my most favorite quotes.
"The most basic and powerful way to connect to another person is to listen. Just listen. Perhaps the most important thing we ever give each other is our attention.... A loving silence often has far more power to heal and to connect than the most well-intentioned words." -Rachel Naomi Remen
It amazes me how just the power of listen can affect those around you. But how do we listen to those around us? Do we ask constant questions, or simply demand or ask for them to talk to us? Or is that we must show a sense of caring, to know that we are listening to not only the desires of their thoughts or actions but the desires of their hearts, the most true and honest desire. In order to do this we must place ourselves last and the individual first.
Don Marquis once said that "There is nothing we like to see so much as the gleam of pleasure in a person's eye when he feels that we have sympathized with him, understood him. At these moments something fine and spiritual passes between two friends. These are the moments worth living."
Thursday, March 10, 2011
The Titan
Greek mythology speaks of Titans as a race of powerful deities, descendants of Gaia and Uranus, that ruled during the legendary Golden Age. A race known as the Elder gods that were overthrown by a younger race known as the Olympians. They fought on the grounds of Thessaly to only fall and crumble to the base of Mount Othrys, to be casted into the shadows of the Olympians to only become a glimpse of greatness.
The choices an individual is to make, the actions that one takes determines the rise and fall of the Titan inside one's soul. But does such an action only affect the being inside of oneself or does it consume the one's closest to the heart of the one who is to make the choice or action.
During the Battle of the Titans there was one thing that held their strength together as one for as long as it could be bore. The one thing that keeps us alive even in the darkest ages, even the loneliest days of our lives. That was love for the Titan beside them, the very energy that keeps the beating of the heart. The Titans stood side by side even when destruction was upon them because of the love that was held between all twelve Titans. There could only have been one way to allow a complete destruction between all twelve Titans and that was if one was to give up, to push away from the love that all Titans held. One simple push could create such a fall that would tear the hearts of the Titans into only splinters of glass.
The choices and actions that one takes in this life have such a greater effect than what can be seen by the naked eye. Keep those that are in your lives close and hold them with such love so that nothing can break through such a beerier and never push away. Be as strong as a Titan.
The choices an individual is to make, the actions that one takes determines the rise and fall of the Titan inside one's soul. But does such an action only affect the being inside of oneself or does it consume the one's closest to the heart of the one who is to make the choice or action.
During the Battle of the Titans there was one thing that held their strength together as one for as long as it could be bore. The one thing that keeps us alive even in the darkest ages, even the loneliest days of our lives. That was love for the Titan beside them, the very energy that keeps the beating of the heart. The Titans stood side by side even when destruction was upon them because of the love that was held between all twelve Titans. There could only have been one way to allow a complete destruction between all twelve Titans and that was if one was to give up, to push away from the love that all Titans held. One simple push could create such a fall that would tear the hearts of the Titans into only splinters of glass.
The choices and actions that one takes in this life have such a greater effect than what can be seen by the naked eye. Keep those that are in your lives close and hold them with such love so that nothing can break through such a beerier and never push away. Be as strong as a Titan.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Far Away
27 days, just 27 days till the beginning of a new chapter in my life. It hasn't quite settled inside of me yet that I will be leaving in less than a months time and it scares me, I won't deny that because denying it would be a lie. Yesterday I got home from being at the beach all weekend long with great friends. When I got home and entered into my room the first thing that crossed my mind was that I would start getting back pains again. No that's not true actually haha. When I walked into my room I noticed that my mom had placed a bag on the floor with miscellaneous things for my mission. Then fear and reality began to settle inside of my thoughts and I grew to be silent. During the night I didn't speak to my family much, I just sat in at the dinner table with them to only listen to the conversation at hand and to not speak a word.
The one thing that I have told myself over and over again in my mind was to not push away from those around me and the sad thing is that that's exactly what I'm doing, not intentionally of course but I have entered a point where I don't have motivation to speak to many people, especially my family. I'm not proud of such a thing but such a thing has become of me. Actions like these are dangerous and harmful, something that I should not take part in but have.
I have to do better than what I have been doing because this is not who I am, and I know that. Losing relationships is the one thing that I cannot afford at this point in my life. I will be leaving in 27 days and will be gone for two years and losing relationships would destroy me, almost completely. Being on the other side of the world scares me enough, but to be there alone without such incredible friends is the one thing that would tear me apart.
Never push away from those around you, because in the end they will be the ones who will be by your side no matter where you go, and no matter who you become.
The one thing that I have told myself over and over again in my mind was to not push away from those around me and the sad thing is that that's exactly what I'm doing, not intentionally of course but I have entered a point where I don't have motivation to speak to many people, especially my family. I'm not proud of such a thing but such a thing has become of me. Actions like these are dangerous and harmful, something that I should not take part in but have.
I have to do better than what I have been doing because this is not who I am, and I know that. Losing relationships is the one thing that I cannot afford at this point in my life. I will be leaving in 27 days and will be gone for two years and losing relationships would destroy me, almost completely. Being on the other side of the world scares me enough, but to be there alone without such incredible friends is the one thing that would tear me apart.
Never push away from those around you, because in the end they will be the ones who will be by your side no matter where you go, and no matter who you become.
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